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Christina is a [Catastrophe]
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| NEW LIVEJOURNAL! |
[Sunday
April 12th] |
I want to get back into lj, but this one has too many memories for me to handle. I could just delete it, but I may want to stumble across it again in the future. So my new lj is ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) christinadotcom . you should add me and keep up with me :)
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| we raise hell bitch |
[Monday
April 6th] |
we raise hell bitch
we raise hell bitch
mother fuckin hell bitch
we dont give a fuck
we dont give a fuck
so all you pussy mother fuckers
shut the fuck up
bitch i dont care!
bitch i dont care!
bitch i dont care about shit!
WHAT!
i dont care
bitch i dont care
bitch i dont care
bitch you can suck my dick!
It's funny how it's music like this that got me through the worst time of my life. my new world vision is fuckin' twisitedddd!
You said this was right.
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[Wednesday
December 24th] |
There's nothing where he used to lie
Convosation has run dry
That's whats going on
Nothing's fine.
I'm torn.
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[Sunday
August 24th] |
i would probably update more if i had something to say
my life is like, same shit different day
but no complaints, ya know?
i like how everything is going
i like who is in it, which is basically no one
but you know
i'm alive another day
i really couldnt ask for more than that
so there was this tropical whatever the fuck supossed to come
her name was fay
she's a bitch
and never came
had the whole city in hysterics
fuck em
and tomorrow is week 2 of school.
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| 94 days |
[Friday
July 18th] |
Is how long I have been clean. Amazing doesn't begin to describe it. I may truly update more because I have a sidekick and therefore I can take the internet everywhere I go.
I have 15 bug bites, which 5 are in a cluster on my back. All 15 currently itch.
I am currently in panama city beach, fl. It is be a u ti ful here! I'm sitting outside right now and the weather is perfect.
School starts in 30 days exactly. Where did my summer go? I'm not sure if I'm excited about it or not. 18 hours, all classes before 1... hmmmm
Well my daddy is here to keep me company. Until next time....
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[Saturday
April 26th] |
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I always forget to update, but nothing soo amazing ever goes on with me.
My latest news... I finally quit smoking weed. I mean, I guess... well... ok... it's for the best.
But Gordon can't, and we're a team, and there is no I or me in team.
We are getting pretty serious... as if we weren't already right?!
We are starting to talk about marriage... that's pretty fucking exciting.
School is almost out. I'm studying my nuts off [which is probably why I don't have any]
I got a car! Damn ass finally. Having my parents escourt me around is the worst. But I had to get around somehow.
Ummmm I need a job. Anyone know where any are availble?
That's about it with me..
See I told you, boring lame updates.
Oh I write alot more now! it's great, i got my flow back!
You can check some out on my myspace.
Yeah, i still sign on to it.
Shit has applications on it. Makes you more addicted everyday.
At least I'm not smoking crack.
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[Friday
April 4th] |
Every morning gordon and I text message each other when we wake up.
This morning I woke up suppppper early so I decided to just text him closer to the time he has to get up for work.
When I did like 1 second later I get a text and it was from him! I texted him back asking if he had got my text but before I could he was like "weird".
This kind of shit happens like... all the time.
It's fucking freaky.
In other news...
I'm going to start updating here more.
fuck myspace and it's shinnanagins, i don't sign on to it anymore.
i will again one day probably
i get more phone calls now.
i've got school! i need to actually read some shit... but... shit i gotta take a shower! ah!
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[Tuesday
March 18th] |
i wish the whole world used livejournal because i think i would update more because i wouldnt forget about it...
soo... i'm in love love love :] things are the best they have ever been. i'm doing fairly okay in school. i have the most wonderful amazing boyfriend any girl could ever ask for and my parents are the shit!
by the time school lets out I should have a car and gordon should be getting his back
FREEEEEEEDOM
other than that
i spend my days stoned and hip
i gotta go to class
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[Sunday
January 27th] |
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Yesterday I went on a date with Gordon :]
This may not mean much to you, but it means EVERYTHING to me.
Since we're poor and can't do anything
Given the chance to do something together was a blessing.
We held hands and stuff =]
I may not have much, but
I have love.
& that my friends, makes life okay.
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[Sunday
January 20th] |
My birthday came and went.
It was just another day.
Same bullshit.
But everyone faking who they are to just get along for one day.
Like that's ever going to happen.
We're a big fucked up dysfunctional family, seriously. Literlly.
However you spell it.
That's all
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[Monday
January 14th] |
let's see, my birthday is in 6 days.
school started.
i will do my best.
eh, that's about it.
pointless update.
i just wanted to ramble.
tell me something random!!
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| tie me to the bed post... |
[Sunday
January 6th] |
so school starts tomorrow. I'm not all that excited about it. I'm not prepared for it all. I am just stressed out of my life.
i got to spend the night with gordon last night. i cried this morning when i had to leave.
everyone always told us we would grow apart because we literelly spent every second with each
well.
mother fuckers were wrong
ever since we had to move.. life is so complicated.
i just can't wait to get through this semester so i can move
but hopefully gordy will get a place... and everything will be ok
right now though, when it rains, it fucking pours.
right now we're in hurricane weather.
we're holding on for dear life though
tonight we talked on the phone for 3 hours just about random ass shit
it was nice... because we never do that kind of stuff since we are always with each other.
God made no mistake when he sheltered me with his heart.
I've already concluded that I absolutely cannot live without him.
i'm a pathetic little girl in love.
but it's cool
he loves me back
& likes it that way.
we basically have no friends
which is even more pathetic
since we're not ballers anymore
no one wants to have anything to do with us
sad, yet true, i swear to god.
but that's cool too
because we have each other
& I guess that's all that matters...
13 days til my birthday.
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[Thursday
December 27th] |
Christmas was great! I got everything I wanted and more!
For the first time in the history of my life I got to go hang out!
I got to spend the night with gordon!
We had our own mini christmas after we got through with hanging out with some peoples.
It was the cutest thing :]
My baby gave me a 100 bucks cash and some other great goodies :] :]
We both got pajama's from his family so we got in them and watched a movie... but passed out like 10 minutes into it.
It was just a lot of fun, because we're like never alone, but that night we were.
So we got to talk and stuff...
& ever since we have just been... SUPER.
Things are looking up for the both of us.
We both know that we still have a couple more obstacles to get through, but we are strong enough to survive it together.
I love the kid so much.
One year next month!!
<3
& i turn 20 BITCH!
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[Wednesday
December 5th] |
My days are getting better.
The sky is the limit.
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[Wednesday
November 21st] |
So the last time I wrote in this thing... life was only beginning to get turned upside down.
We'll it has flipped.
Hell has risen in my cooker cutter world
& now I am trying my best to put it back together.
My family fell apart.
School fell apart.
My heart fell apart.
My friends decieved me.
I was set up.
I'm in major trouble that I'm afraid I wont get out of.
My car was flipped.
Drugs took its toll.
I lost my best friend.
God stopped listening because I stopped believing.
Man, what is a girl of 19 years behind her belt going to do????
Cry. That was my first step.
I've been thinking this since the first thing started to crumble that i HAVE TO SEPERATE MYSELF FROM ALL THAT IS EVIL.
but I could just never figure out what was bad in my life and what was good.
Step two, consult God about it.
Now, finally I am at step three.
Save my relationship. I spoke what I had to say. We'll see what happens.
We'll always be together.
I can't see it any other way...
Now what can I take on? I started with the easiest... they only get harder to deal with.
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[Saturday
September 22nd] |
Only 8 months ago a boy who wore green glasses and red sweater vests swooned me with his snazzy words.
Come to think about it, with his color scheme at the time, he really was like an early christmas present.
Man, where did the time go?
I feel like I have evolved into something totally fucking different.
I feel old.
I feel wise.
I feel...
Simple.
Yeah, I just don't give a fuck.
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[Tuesday
August 28th] |
I put my faith in you, so much faith
And then you just threw it away...
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[Tuesday
August 14th] |
TOMORROW! is the day I get to move the fuck out
& for some remarkable reason Gordon went from being in deep shit to practically no shit so i think he gets to leave too... but now all of his school shit is messed up because no one cares except for me... and him... that whole situation is stressful and I don't want to talk about it...
But i'm so ready to get school and shit started because i'm just hating everyone right now
all of our "friends" are just really selfish and jealous
When gordon couldnt hang out because he got arrested NO ONE understood
They made us both feel like shit because we werent being "bad ass" and sneaking out
I mean, yeah I could have hung out... but i'm not leaving gordon by himself
He's my best friend & boyfriend... you just don't do that to satisfy people that will come and go
We are forever
Therefore he is more important
Plus he was having a hard time...
I dont want to talk about this either because it's just upsetting me a bunch
But to make a long story short...
I'm done with alot of shit that happened this summer
I'm done with alot of my friends who are just deadbeats and up to no good
Brighter days are instore for me and Gordon Savell II
You can come along too
But I dont want to hear your bullshit.
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[Tuesday
July 31st] |
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Nothing gold can stay.
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[Friday
July 27th] |
my life has changed drastically over the past few weeks. i'm digging a hole deeper and deeper for myself. it's actually quite funny because i really dont care about anything anymore. i dont care about school. i dont care about my future. i dont care about my life. all i care about is what is going on right now. my parents are on the verge of hating me and for some reason i dont think i care all that much. i'm so pathetic and sad. i'm pretty sure the only emotion i feel is love. i love gordon. gordon is my life. and i'm his too. he is going through the same phase. nothing matters to him. just me. well maybe a couple of other things too matter to us... but other than that... yesterday or... i dont even know when we decided that we were dying. but it's cool... everyone else is dying... we're just dying a little bit faster.
i'm so far gone now. i've been running on empty.
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